love letters

So I went to the house yesterday to get the grass mowed. While I was there I picked up a few things to bring to the house and remembered to look for the letters that I saved from when your Dad was in the army. It was getting late so I didn't want to read them at the house, I came home and sat on the back patio before it got too dark and I was forced to go inside.

There weren't as many of them as I remembered. As I look back with "grown up" eyes, I realize that he wasn't gone that long, maybe 6-8 weeks before he was home for Christmas. He came home for a couple of weeks and then returned for maybe 8 weeks longer before he was back at home.

We hadn't been dating that long when he left. I also found some letters that he would write me when he was still here but we were apart. I think we had only be dating a couple of months before his recruiter picked him up.

Most of the letters didn't contain much other than he missed me and loved me and he said that A LOT. There was one note (because he was before he went into the military) where he shares his background with me up until age 15 which was how old I was when I was reading it. It was a bit white washed where he didn't talk about much negative stuff. He does talk about not really knowing his brother until they were much older. He talked about talking to his Dad.

It was just very bitter sweet as I read through the letters, his writing was much neater than it was later in his life. He did have hope, hope that after getting out of the army he was going to go to college, that we would be together....that he would be happy.